my x-mas was good...how was urs...?

i got a few tops from k-mart, beatles rock band, a few gifts cards, money, and mah kick ass pair of boots grom hot topic.

and mah bf was able to stay with me on x-mas!!

i hope does well and i hope she had a great last day of school

and this new years will be interesting...

when i reflect on this years past, everything moved so slow then, but now when i think of it, it moved fast...

there are regrets...hell yea...a lot of regrets...
but these regrets made me stronger so if u asked me would i take back anything...
i would pause in reflection...and say
no...im happy with hte way things turned out got sum friends...lost sum friends...fell in love...fell out...new school no failing grades...

i can honestly say...for the first time in my life...

im optimistic...i can't wait for tomorrow...

2010 IM READY FOR YA!!!

BRING IT ON!!!

im finally not depressed anymore... lolz boyz arent worth it!

in fact im quiiiiiiiiiiite happy...

>//////< that all im gonna say...im terrible

anywho...good luck to elisha- and hope to visit soon...maybe we can plan a play date in pallisades mall >w>

lolz im me if u need to talk...

and um...i stil miss my epically awesome friends...dont worry i havent replaced u

i wish i could see them sooooo- IM GONNA STOP BEFORE I DEPRESS U AGAIN!!

just...december...23...save the date mi amigas... XD

hey peeps this is obviously alaina here...OUT TO SPREAD HOLIDAY JOY!

so im gonna write my angst out right now... and then hopefully i be betta!

this is probably what most teens want anyway... here it goes!:

1) for christmas to have the same magic that it used to when we were 5...

2) for santa to be real

3) when getting clothes was a bad thing...i miss toys...

4) when people didnt worry about finding their holiday sweet heart -___-"

5) when a new years kiss was considered yucky...

6) the time when we all wished we had our two front teeth back

7) when we didnt get tired of candy canes until june...

8) when decortating the tree was not seen as a job...

9) my parents faces when i woke them up when i was little

10) having my friends by my side...

now that i depressed all of u...remember this...

just remember what christmas used to be and those memories will come flooding back to ye...XD

anything for a rhyme...slime...i needa dime-

HAPPY CHRISTMAS!!

im angry...this isnt a journal...more liek a rant/poem/stress releiver type deal...

Anger...

i never get angry...i try to hide it...

to protect my most vunerable part of myself...

and to protect you...

but slowly im morphing...into something i cant control...

im slipping...im loosing...im going to explode...

friends...? why have them if you have enemies...right?

BACKSTABBER!

i want to say it...but thats not proper...isnt it?

no really...isnt it?

screw it...im tired of hiding...

just once...i want to show you...

what a monster i can become...

so here it is...im going to explode...

watch your back...because your done...

PEACE~